Eight weeks from today, March 13, 2008…I will be on a plane to India, not to mention finished with my graduate career, well my MA, perhaps Ill get a Ph.D one day .  But, wow, eight weeks. In those eight weeks, the things I have to do are endless. Sometimes I feel like I’m just done. That my brain can no longer register information and I must leave immediately, ironic, because now is the most important time of grad school. On the fifth chapter of thesis and revision (which I’ve started, and dread) I imagine it will be worth it at symposium, however I sometimes cannot sleep imaginging how I will finish all of that. It’s times like that I have to remember just how capable I am, not to mention some really great professors who remind me all the time . Not sure what I’d do without them. I just feel like I can’t give a 100% to a lot of things and I hate that. I give it to the things that need that much attention now, but even in class. I feel like I put things off, and it’s not that this class isn’t important, it totally is and I’m really learning a lot. I just wish I had more time to explore what we’ve learned and practice with it. I feel like I spend so much time planning my week to make sure I have time to do everything, but it never works out that way. I should quit planning so much, maybe that’ll free up some time!

Over the course of time I’ve definitely had my share of obstacles, but it think when you get older you really learn what people say yabout “relaying on youreself”. I’ve been fortunately enough to have so many people surround me that genuinely believe in me and want only the best for me. But, now, as I look for jobs and finish the biggest paper of my life I realize no matter how many people are there to help (and they REALLY help) in the end, it’s all me. If I think I can’t do it, I won’t.

I’m so ready to face the challenges of the real world, outside of school. I want to put to use all the information I’ve acquired and make a difference (either large or small), like I said in the beginning, I might sound naive, but I think I can do big things. I’ll keep believign that until I’m proved wrong..which will hopefully be never .

That plane ride is going to be SOOOOO realxing….me, my family, a few People mags, and of course a glass of red

CAN’T WAIT.